I grew up in a family that took spiritual things for granted, so it shouldn’t be too much of a surprise that at a very early age I had a profound spiritual experience. When I was about 3 years old, I thought that Jesus had come to see me when I was sick. While I was having what I considered a personal time with Jesus I kept telling my mother, “Mommy, don’t come in the room!” When it was finally OK for her to come in, I told her, “Jesus came to see me, and he told me, ‘Eddie, I love you, and all the angels in heaven are singing a song just for you.’” Was that real? I guess you can decide that for yourself, but my mother was convinced it was real, I know that for sure. She was so convinced that when my dad came home she was crying, convinced that since I had such an experience with Jesus, I must have been close to dying!
Years later during a special revival service at our church, we were having a very extended time of prayer. As I was quiet before the Lord in prayer for quite some time, I felt as though God were reminding me of that experience when I was three years old—of how Jesus had personally told me that he loved me. The experience seemed very real to me as an adult, and I was in awe that Jesus would come and speak to me as a toddler! It was a wonderful thought. I just reveled in the warmth of the memory during my time of prayer that evening.
And then I felt as though God wanted to ask me a question, and the question was this: “Ed, what makes you think I love you any less now?” What a telling question! In my thinking, it was easy to see how God would love me as an innocent three-year-old, but I could think of a lot of reasons why God should love me less now.
I think that’s true of a lot of followers of Jesus: we underestimate the degree to which God loves us. He can love others, he can love the innocent children, but he couldn’t possibly love us in the same way, could he? We can know in our heads that he loves us, yet in our hearts have a tough time grappling with the truth of God’s unconditional love. He really does love us just as much today as he did before we lost our innocence. It’s really true. Maybe that’s part of the reason Jesus says we have to receive the kingdom of God like little children.
Revival is a time of making the love of God more real for us. Revival is a time that God drives the truth from our heads to our hearts. Do you need revival? It’s here for you.